My mom was in the hospital week before Imbolc, so i flew out to see her just as mercury went retrograde. Missed work, spent my savings, used up all my PTO, jacked up my almost paid off credit card. Missed the baggage check in, got searched in security and detained had several valuable tinctures confiscated as well as some rice pudding (it's a gel-like substance), and missed my flight. Was not fun, sat in the hospital for 2 days waiting for discharge with my mom. It was hard keeping the woodstove going, preparing meals. I couldn't sleep in that house. Despite it all, sister was in her 4th sememster of nursing school and just started clinicals, so I am glad to have been able to "help." Though we had words, and it's all out in the open, not sure anything will change.

Prior to that I hosted a Mayan Ceremony and had a huge loss of faith, smacked in the face with my cult background. Am still not all together. Found out that my great-uncle died 2 days ago, and that yes, in fact he was in Auchwitz with my grandfather. Have been wondering for a long while about myself, and have been spending some time looking into that dark mirror. Coming to grips.

Found out that a friend's step-mom died of radiation burns to her lungs after a battle with colon cancer that metz'd to her lungs. The spirits said the cancer won't take her. In addition, a really good friend's partner is battling bone cancer metz. Now another friend is going through chemo for lung cancer. This is so hard to witness and stay in the love, I'm afraid for them. Being a nurse- I've been around sick people my whole life- thinking about maybe taking some art classes to just decompress.

Saw a bit of the lunar eclipse the other night with a friend and her sweetie-pie 4 year old. Wonder what else is on the horizon?